Haix. I so miss my kakak. But I know that shes happy there and shes getting married soon. Even though I know that shes gone and she will nvr come back , I still miss her lots. I really treasure the memories I had with her during the past 7 years of happiness. Now half of my happiness is gone. Lost forever . I really wish her good luck. Hope that she would be happier at her own home than with us. I guess she would be happier with her own family again. The love that she would receive I guess would be stronger at her own country. I really miss euu lots Kakak. LOVE you forever! I won't forget euu and I hope you won't forget me too. I am so lonely without anybody to rely on. I really wanna hug euu again Kakak. But I don't I think i'll ever have the chance. I guess farmlife would be more suitable for euu rite. But I really dun wan euu to go back leaving mi all alone here in this family. Maybe I'm nt alone but I just dun tink I have enough time to suit the miserable life now. Mayb if I had more time I would be more prepared and brave to face the life of miseries. So emo everyday. You can call mi selfish to keep holding on to her and dun let her go back. But I just ....... cant control. The emotions I'm facing now are so difficult that I don't know how to manage. Why cant human just have no troubles and be a carefree person forever ? It's really so difficult to hang on for life. So many stress and so much troubles we humans have to face. Probably I'm able to let go in a year's time. When I do anything, she just pop outs in my mind. Even my parents are leaving mi in the house to do nothing. But I know it is bcoz of mi they need to go out and work so I can't blame them. I just have to let go sooner or later. If I let it go now, at least I won't have to face more misery. If I chose to let go, I'll still have more miseries. I rather let go now but I don't know I just don't want to forget her. I am so depressed. And HOMEWORK , HOMEWORK and MORE HOMEWORKS are stressing out my mind. Tomorrow is Miss Tan 's Birthday. Early Happy Birthday grats to euu . =) At least there is still one happy thing to talk about.
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Ming Yi here :(